Today while I
was having my quiet time I was thinking/praying over Ps 139:13-16 again. I love
that verse so much and I’m happy that I’ve had it to pray over him for most of
my pregnancy. But I was thinking again about the part that says that God knew
him inside and out and knew all the days of his life before he’d even lived one…
it’s crazy to me because here I am, the mother of this child, I’ve had him
inside of me for 9 months and no one else knows him like I do, and yet I still
haven’t even seen him… I don’t know if he has a head full of hair or he’s bald,
if his eyes are light or dark, what his face shape is… I especially don’t know
things in the future like what kind of personality he’s going to have, what his
likes and dislikes will be, or who he’ll be – and yet God already knows all of
that. It’s a humbling thought to know that even though he’s my child and he’s inside me, he’s still God’s. God is the only
One who knows him already. He knows how my labor is going to go, the ups and
downs of us getting adjusted to having a new baby, how he’s going to grow and
who he’s going to grow to be… It makes you wonder why you worry about so much
when your knowledge and power is so limited and when God already knows it all.
All I need to be doing is praying and letting go. God is giving me this child
as a gift, I am to raise him and attend to him and make sure he is brought up
in the Will of God, but he’s God’s child. I’m just a steward he’s bestowed this
gift upon and I hope I never forget that…
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